As you can clearly tell, this blog has been on the back burner lately. It has been for a good reason though, as most of my energy has been going into another writing project recently. As you may know if you’ve been following me for awhile, my life has been totally turned upside down the last couple of years. It has been a rough road for me and the boys, but in the midst of it all we have found hope, growth, and blessings in the depths of our grief.
Though I am NOT a writer, I feel like God is calling me to share my story so that others who find themselves suddenly dealing with heartbreak, a loved ones addiction, or some other type of difficult life changing circumstance can know that they are not alone and that there is hope. It is truly amazing how God has laid a path for me through the hardest and darkest of situations to bring me to a place of peace. My life doesn’t look like I ever thought I would and not that I’d wish what I’ve gone through on anyone, but man, God is good through it all and I am thankful for where I am today. A year and a half ago I was paralyzed with grief and fear and didn’t know how I was going to get through it. My heart was physically aching and I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders as I was responsible for caring for three young boys while rebuilding my whole entire life from the ground up. I felt super alone in the sense 99% of the people in my life didn’t even know what was going on and I’d never known anyone who had dealt with what I was dealing with. I had faith but I was broken. It was impossibly hard.
But step by step, God kept leading me forward, opening new doors, bringing beauty out of the ashes, and teaching and transforming me more than I could have ever imagined. He didn’t answer my prayers in the way that I wanted him to or take away all of the suffering, but he taught me that there are blessings in the depths of it and that my pain can be used for a greater purpose. For that, I am beyond grateful and I want others to know that there is hope, a path, and blessings for them as well.
I’m excited to share my story .
That being said, I feel like I am sneaking in writing whenever and wherever I can! I have chapters written on two different computers, various notebooks, scrap pieces of paper, voice memos and notes on my phone - you name it. If I’m honest - it’s a mess! But a beautiful mess :) And I hope someday it can all come together and deliver a message that someone else out there may need to hear.
While it will probably be A WHILE before I really have updates, if you think you might be interested in hearing them when they are available - please sign up below and you’ll be the first to be notified as this comes to fruition.
In the meantime, I feel called to say that if you find yourself in a season of suffering, please don’t hesitate to reach out. I’m here if you need a friend.
I also hope to get back into The Fat Hydrangea a little bit more too! The last couple of months I’ve needed to step back and unplug, but I’ve missed this community and the creative outlet it provides! I am looking to make more time for this little space of the internet in the coming months, so stay tuned!
Lots of love,