The Fat Hydrangea

Sara Michelle - Columbus, Ohio

The Calling to Write

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As you can clearly tell, this blog has been on the back burner lately. It has been for a good reason though, as most of my energy has been going into another writing project recently. As you may know if you’ve been following me for awhile, my life has been totally turned upside down the last couple of years. It has been a rough road for me and the boys, but in the midst of it all we have found hope, growth, and blessings in the depths of our grief.

Though I am NOT a writer, I feel like God is calling me to share my story so that others who find themselves suddenly dealing with heartbreak, a loved ones addiction, or some other type of difficult life changing circumstance can know that they are not alone and that there is hope. It is truly amazing how God has laid a path for me through the hardest and darkest of situations to bring me to a place of peace. My life doesn’t look like I ever thought I would and not that I’d wish what I’ve gone through on anyone, but man, God is good through it all and I am thankful for where I am today. A year and a half ago I was paralyzed with grief and fear and didn’t know how I was going to get through it. My heart was physically aching and I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders as I was responsible for caring for three young boys while rebuilding my whole entire life from the ground up. I felt super alone in the sense 99% of the people in my life didn’t even know what was going on and I’d never known anyone who had dealt with what I was dealing with. I had faith but I was broken. It was impossibly hard.

But step by step, God kept leading me forward, opening new doors, bringing beauty out of the ashes, and teaching and transforming me more than I could have ever imagined. He didn’t answer my prayers in the way that I wanted him to or take away all of the suffering, but he taught me that there are blessings in the depths of it and that my pain can be used for a greater purpose. For that, I am beyond grateful and I want others to know that there is hope, a path, and blessings for them as well.

I’m excited to share my story .

That being said, I feel like I am sneaking in writing whenever and wherever I can! I have chapters written on two different computers, various notebooks, scrap pieces of paper, voice memos and notes on my phone - you name it. If I’m honest - it’s a mess! But a beautiful mess :) And I hope someday it can all come together and deliver a message that someone else out there may need to hear.

While it will probably be A WHILE before I really have updates, if you think you might be interested in hearing them when they are available - please sign up below and you’ll be the first to be notified as this comes to fruition.

In the meantime, I feel called to say that if you find yourself in a season of suffering, please don’t hesitate to reach out. I’m here if you need a friend.

I also hope to get back into The Fat Hydrangea a little bit more too! The last couple of months I’ve needed to step back and unplug, but I’ve missed this community and the creative outlet it provides! I am looking to make more time for this little space of the internet in the coming months, so stay tuned!

Lots of love,

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Functional & Fashionable Travel

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As you know, I’ve been doing some traveling this year (California and Florida) and am so in love with some of my new travel accessories that I just have to share! My last luggage was on it’s last legs.. I truly think if I would have used my 10-year old suitcase for one more trip it would have fallen apart in transit! So, I invested in a beautiful set from Away (the Bigger Carry On and the Medium) in navy, of course. Seriously could not be happier with them. They are durable, spacious, and such high quality. Definitely live up to the hype!

I also am loving the clear accessory bags from Truffle. I use the small, rectangular case for headphones, sunglasses, gum, etc. It’s so nice that it’s clear and easy to see, and keeps things from floating around (and falling out of) my purse. I love the bigger, flat clear case to put my papers/boarding pass/etc. in. That way they don’t get bent or ruined or lost!

The Freshly Picked diaper backpack is also a total necessity with traveling with kids. It’s adorable and functional, and if you ask me, backpacks are the way to go so then you can travel hands free if you have to pick up a kid (or two!)

The rest are just cute accessories I added to the mix!

 
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Here are click-through links to the products:

Away Travel the Bigger Carry-on in Navy

Away Travel the Bigger Carry-on in Navy

Tory Burch Gemini Link Canvas Tote

Tory Burch Gemini Link Canvas Tote

Truffle Clarity Jetset Case

Truffle Clarity Jetset Case

Michael Kors Leather Tassel Key Chain in Optic White

Michael Kors Leather Tassel Key Chain in Optic White

Estella Barlett Passport Cover

Estella Barlett Passport Cover

Truffle Clarity Clutch

Truffle Clarity Clutch

Freshly Picked Stone Classic Diaper Bag

Freshly Picked Stone Classic Diaper Bag

I’m excited for the trips my future will bring - both big and small :)

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My California Getaway!

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My birthday present from my parents is that they would watch the boys while I took five days to go to southern California to visit my sister to relax, recharge, and soak up the sun! While I missed the boys and it is definitely hard to be so far away from them, I knew they were in the best of hands and a getaway on my own was exactly what I needed!

Here are some snippets of my trip- from putting my feet in the sand to exploring Newport Beach, shopping at Lido Village, writing by the ocean, going for walks with the most beautiful views and stunning houses, treating myself to some delicious food, and overall just enjoying each moment!

There is nothing like a getaway to bring peace, clarify, and a refreshed appreciation of home. So thankful for my parents, my sister, and my nanny who all helped make this trip happen for me! Makes me feel so incredibly blessed <3

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Until next time California!

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Strength, Sensitivity, & Self-Care

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I know it’s a huge buzz word these days, but truly, self-care has become a major theme in my life lately.

Having to juggle raising three young kids, working full-time in a professional career, managing a household on my own, battling constant and unrelenting daycare germs, and navigating myself through a great deal of shock/grief – it’s more than I ever imagined I’d be responsible for.

Everyone keeps telling me that I am so strong, but in reality, I do not feel strong at all. In fact, I feel extremely sensitive to EVERYTHING! I have realized over the last year that things around me impact me on a mental and physical level significantly more than they used to. On a good day, I’m sensitive. On my bad days, I’m downright fragile.  My therapist has taught me that this is very common for people who have dealt with trauma and extended periods of extremely escalated adrenaline and cortisol levels. Essentially, my body needs to recover and heal. My nerves are shot.  All of that being said, I’ve become acutely aware of what makes me feel good and what doesn’t. Below is my short list.

Things that significantly impact me in a negative way:

  • Fast food.

  • Watching negative or scary things on TV.

  • Lack of sleep.

  • Lack of alone time.

  • Dark, dreary environments.

  • Noise.

  • Clutter.

  • Gossip.

  • Multi-Tasking.

  • Too much sugar.

  • Hearing arguing or swear words.

Things that significantly impact me in a positive way:

  • Quality time with my boys (playing, cuddling, reading to them, & caring for them in general).

  • Deep sleep.

  • Daily time for reflection/inspiration/prayer.

  • Fresh air & being in nature.

  • Positive, lighthearted, inspirational messages.

  • Bright, organized, uplifting environments.

  • Quiet.

  • Fresh, floral, & citrusy smells.

  • Afternoon walks.

  • Tea.

  • Writing.

  • Yoga or stretching before bed.

  • Hot baths.

  • Drinking lots of water.

  • Fresh fruits & vegetables.

  • Traveling & experiencing a change of scenery.

  • Sharing how I’m feeling.

  • The feeling that I’m learning and growing.

Overall, I’m leaning into how sensitive I currently am. I’m really focused on self-care and curating my life with things that lift me up and put me in a mental and physical state of wellness. Right now, I do this because I can’t NOT this! I need to feel better and I need to heal. My body and mind CRAVE the positive things I’ve listed above. I need this for myself and for the three little boys who are counting on me every day, and so I can manage all that is on my plate. All that being said,  I’m learning and trying new things in order to bring more and more and more of the positive into my life. An absolutely necessity - but also proving to be an interesting and rewarding adventure!

Over time, with lots of nurturing and care, I hope to build up my resilience and be “strong” once again. In the meantime, I’m soaking up the blessings of being sensitive and the healthy, peaceful path its guiding me down. I’m learning so much and its all for the good!

I’m looking forward to sharing more about the specifics! Lots of blog posts in the works :)

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